Finally Silent

There are bottles of thoughts
On table tops
Getting knocked
Over by the constant
Shakes my heart makes
Just trying to escape
My chest and take
Me over
I am swallowing gulps
And whispered high notes
Trying to coax
My mind into no
Trying to hold
Not to go
Where we both know
Our conversations belong
I am getting so close
To just letting go
And spending my nights
Curled up inside
Those three little words
Walk without turn
Leap without look
And take pleasuring knowing
When I land on us
I can say duh
Because I am feeling what its like
To know the truth despite
What the past might
Have stored on its side
This is no fight
I am having inside
This is a truth delivered on time
To this boy inside
The boy who cried full
Stop, yes, no, and wolf
Now I swallow my tongue
Just watching us
Take the words from the poet
And I’ll dance how I feel
Can’t try to conceal
I’ll paint and I’ll squeal
Take this tongue from my throat
Keep the peace god knows
But there is no
Way I can stop myself from these words
Three little ones I’m sure
You’ve heard
And as I whisper those lines
I can feel in your eyes
The terror inside
What am I
About to say?
You are welcome.
Because god knows for me
To finally
Stop silently
And not jump blind
Takes some kind of guy
To drag my behind
Into a kind
Of patience
And just so you know
I am dying here
Just to finally clear
These words from my throat
But I know
One day I will hold
You and we’ll see
Knowingly
Family
Terribly
Nervously
Approaching
Moments to go
Then I’ll turn and tell you what you already know
But not today
And I must say
Woo boy
You’re welcome
I’m about to explode
But you’re just so yes that I’ve got to say no
Because when we get to where we go
I want to see what it is that we have been growing
Make time to step back and see where this goes
Hold tight to your tongue and enjoy the show
Three words can be such a terrible load
Who needs three words when you’ve got a whole poem?

Ribcage

You said I’d never have
That rock hard sex-pack
Never be in pages
Showing off faces
Because my bottom ribs
Jut out and give
Shadows to my abs
So bury that hatchet
But my bottom ribs
Jut out like this
Because I’ve a heart soft
But never is lost
I need extra protection
So before I remove
Any ribs for you
I will love my bones
The way that they show
And give my heart home
And join while I go
Hunt for more poems
And leave you alone
To admire your own
Abdomen.

Like Summers

Lovers like sponges soaking up summers
To dance to the ground
Come fall
Deep into leaves
In that great in-between
Somehow warm breeze
Yet somehow these leaves
These Indian summer sleeves
Growing down your arms
And budding as gloves
While two viscious scarves
Hungry for hearts
Tie us together
And cover us in leaves
While we seep
All the summers we found to take
Lying and waiting
There by the rake
Spend these nights with me
Before they are evenings
Tend to my needs
Jump from your tree
Stay close to me
Promising
We’ll land close to each other

Pulse

I am still tasting the salt
From my deep swallows
Lying breathless
From depths thrust
Into my lungs
When the storm began
I found the one man
Floating on paddles
And approaching in pulses
Little toy boats
Sinking in still underwater
My mother and father
Lost at sea
My family
The bubbles lifting my face
In between breaks
Gasping to see
The savior to be
Reaching for me
Leaning
But when the weight set in
And he gave me a tug
The wind and rain bullied us
We tumbled
Watching oars float away
Fighting to save
The same
Selfish mistakes
Of every man for himself
I sank to the shells
The debris and me
Alone in the sea
And as I turned to the moon
My hair floats in tune
With the subtle ocean pulse
My eyes thick with the salts
I saw my fault
Saw what I saw
The last time I sank
His feet kicked to the shore
The waves held their course
And my savior no more
But with coral
His hands with the reef
My hands with me
Confused and still
Wheeze and fill
With my surrounds
My all arounds
Gathered the deepest breath from me
I could get from the deep
And feel deep asleep
I wake
With the waves
The sun in my face
And sand on my legs
The man who saved
His own life at sea
Not near me
But footprints
Like kicks
To the chest
Left to suggest
He was never around
To dry my face
And stay
Until wake
So the clouds roll away
I rise to my legs
And endure my next swim
Straight out to him
In whatever hellish storm
He has come to call normal
Never stopping for air
But only to stare
Blinded by the sun
Setting the horizon
On fire
And waving at me
Direct from point B
Promising
An opposite shore.

I wrote you a poem

Look to the past
The scripts and the cast
Let out a laugh
Break smile real fast
The days of way back
Aint got shit on your ass
And the future looks fantastic
Long lasting
Apple grabbing
Turn that core to see
A B C D E F G
Who will it be
Is for me
Will I marry?
Call that stem weak
Blame it on me
Just dying to see
Which letter it’d be
Just the same way
We met that day
I knew right away
When it broke on A
It was for my baby
Now want to view that heart
Figure out where to start
Take it apart
Just to put back together
Take a piece of forever
To figure you out
What you’re about
And then put back
Again in-tact
But this time it’d be
Rebuilt for me
Only to see
The breath-taking fact
That it is exactly
The same as when I started
This perfectly heart
This piece to see
Only difference would be
My fingerprints all over it
I woke with peace
But a bit of a wheeze
Because now I breathe
Not just for me
But what is now ‘we’
I fell asleep
Deep inside need
For more air to breathe
Because last night your tears
Seeped to be seen
Longed to be free
To finally breathe
The air out of me
Tell your tears they won
All their freedom
And the breath out of me
Tell your eyes it’s alright
To go ahead and cry
Because with you by my side
Catching drops from your eyes
There’s a path to sunrise
Lined
With breaths out of me
For your tears to receive

Warm Here

They say they only want me
If know they can’t have me
Don’t want I should lose you
But I’m begging you to grab me
Nab me
Grasp free
The good and the bad, see
I’m ecstatically
Elastic
Bouncing back
And forth knowing
This desire I go showing
May be slowing
Things down, but I’m going
I gotta keep it all hush
But you’re a burning hot oven
And I know I’m gonna touch it
that’s unless
This confess
Is too pressing
Because all I know is feeling
And I feel like I should know
The way you feel about me
When I let my words go
But I don’t
There are twenty billion facts
Ten million after that
In stacks
Of this and that
That are so exact
About who I am
And I know it’s far fetched
At best
But
I have a sip too much
And they fall out on the floor
The thinks I am thinking
The flowetry I pour
About knowing I want more
That I just can’t ignore
Knowing I adore
This simple speedy truth
The facts about you
And all that I will do
To try and keep you
See, I try my best to hide it
Don’t want to send you out
Scared and shouting
Sending texts about
That boy who sent you flowers
Within a few hours
Of the meeting he was calling
The beginning of his falling
The start of this see-sawing
Grand prize drawing
Phenomenon
But my earth is shaking
And my waves are waking
And my air is baking
In this heat you’re making
So though it’s been a week
You don’t know me
We aren’t yet we
And this is silly
Allow me the chance
To go all in
Push my chips in
Breathe deep, hope big
Toss dice and give spin
To the idea of beginnings
And the knowledge that I’m yours
To the hope of what our course
Has in store
To the million little pours
Holding tight to make the place
Where that smile radiates
And those eyes
Entice
Delight
And cause a stream to feel free
To flow forth from me
About every
Part of this man
You can already have
You do already have
Me at my best
A little distressed
By how quickly my chest
Surrendered its vessel
My ribs pulled apart
Room for two hearts
And it’s warm here whenever you’re ready.

Sheets Prt. 2

Tonight I am going to ask you
To just keep me in a hold
Steady, in control
And slowly let go
Only when you know
I am asleep.
Tonight I will need you
To find
Simultaneous
Reminders
Of just why
You are mine
Smile just right
And make me sigh
Turn down the lights
Make the time
And tonight I’m going to cry
About things you don’t get
Try to help, yet
Please don’t sweat
When my tears sit
In pools on the bed
It’s here in my head
You will not know
And that is okay
Just listen and see
Keep touching me
Tonight you are a place
To ignore what I hate
Just step away
This load came at once
Like a busted undercover
And I need to relax
Need distractions
Packages
Of insecurities
And hobbies
Emotional house cleanings
Do their part
But no good when my heart
Is holding itself
It keeps telling
Me to go clean
Go change some sheets
Let off some steam
Take some deep
Breaths and the sheets
To the washing machine
Go change some sheets
But it’s clear to me
I’d much rather be
In them
And away from this
Tonight I am going to be clear
I said come here
Stay here
Just lay here all ears
Because I need to love hasty
Someone with taste
And a face
That makes
My mouth salivate
And keeps my eyes
Good and dry
Tonight I am going to die
And bury my
Head
In your chest
Under blankets and sheets
Tough realities
And avoid at all costs
The sum of this loss
Spend the night lost
In a turbulent toss
And turn fight
Gasping for light
Drinking in spite
And sobbing like
I was dying
Tonight you will fall asleep with me
When I’m finally free
Deep beneath sheets
Fast in my sleep
And although I may be
Demanding
Tomorrow you will be
The first thing I see
And I will be tangled
In you.