The harder I have fought
To understand surrender
The harder it has been to hear
Whatever message it might carry
It's like getting tired of looking
And looking
And looking
For a place to sleep
What am I supposed to do?
Take a break and take a nap?
'You don't understand. I just can't'
I tell myself
And tell myself
And tell myself
'But maybe...'
Some little voice
Some little voice that's new
Came to whisper to me
'Maybe the first part of surrender...
Is to accept that you don't get it?
Perhaps drop your searching hands
Down by your side
Down!
Down by your side
And let your shoulders shrug and rise
Let your lungs collect a sigh
Just let your lips divide
And sigh'
And of course it's not that easy
And of course I had to fight
And that little voice was silent
'But maybe that's alright'
After a while
That little voice sighs
'Maybe that's alright too
You don't know what to do
Just yet
I bet
No one ever knows surrender
When they start on their adventure
To understand the embers
After a fire goes out
And without
A doubt
This is where you ought to be
When understanding
How to let go'
And my heart grows
And my ears hone in
And I start to begin
To listen to him
This little voice
'Now take your hands from your side'
The little voice cried
'And feel the air
Up there
Feel the sky'
I closed my eyes
Doubting the whole time
And dammit I tried
And after a while
I swear I was flying
And I heard a little voice
Whisper to me
So gently
On just one side
'Now open your eyes
Because you're flying'
'I want to look down
What should I do?
You're talking to me
Then I'm talking to you
My hands are made for searching
It's just how I'm made
Can I really surrender
While searching this way?
Can I get through my days
Looking for ways
To control all around me
While accepting my fate
At the same time
Maybe just I'm
Maybe just I'm
I'm crazy'
'But maybe'
The little voice kneeled
Down beside me:
'A deal.
A promise to ponder
Will you let go and wander
If I am here to hold on?
Will you tackle your fear
Let it be made clear
What's meant to be
If I'm in your ear?'
And it was in that moment
As I recall
That I let myself fall
That I let myself find
What surrender felt like
Every day, Little Voice
I take these foreign
Deep breaths of mine
And let them out like a sigh
Knowing that my
Hands in the sky
Are searching but I'm
Ok with the find
Because that is truly surrender
Thank you, Little Voice
Inside my ear perched
For letting me search
Asking only that I listen
And helping me hear
You in my ears
You by my side
You at my back
You all the time
Saying to me
Every time I've got fear
'Don't worry
I've got you
And keep going
I'm here'
