Step Two

The happiest moments in my life
When I look back
Are covered in sweat
Cooling on my temples
As a smile broke upon my face
In the sunset.
It is the darkest
And colder days
Upon reflection
That were covered in blankets
And felt comfortable on my skin.

Model

The laurel wreath comes out at night
I look best by candle light
I sit in window sill and smoke
And watch the other windows glow

Sebastian

Five A.M.
I sit still
In the dark
I'm quiet
I think of
Loves in times
That are old
That still shine
Roman men
Greecian Gods
Wet loin clothes
By the shore

My phone rings
Who is this
Um hello
I saved you
In my phone
As hot boy
I ask too
Who is this

I hang up
This is why
I will stay
Single for
Now.

That Which Pushes

Do not turn against the wind 
And hold your jacket tighter
Lean into the wind arms open
And spread your coat like wings
Ask for support from that which 
Pushes you
Dare to lean in instead
And remember that cold while harsh 
Is painful
But It is what makes the world bare and real
Summer suns are charming and flatter
But winter is being honest with you.

All Tied

I forget sometimes
In times 
When I
Am all tied 
Up in my head
What they said
When they told me
That god is listening
To me, too.
And it doesn't hurt to ask.

Acting Out

Forgive me for the things I said
When I didn't want to be alive.
I promise both that they were not true
And that now I want to survive.

Pablo

Just as I left you
My occasional lover
Do not stir for me
From your sleep
Just as I left him 
My occasional lover
From when I got up
To get a drink
Only now he is not tangled in me
But his hair still falls
In mad fits of midnight
Long wisps grabbing onto the pillow 
Every scar
I occasionally kiss
Every burn mark
I run my fingers over
And that gentle golden cross
Still resting at your heart
While a blue morning light
Sneaks in through the window
And I break the rules
That require of me solitude
Occasionally 
So that I may open my heart
And marinate in your brown skin
Impossibly beautiful eyelashes
And inviting lips. 
You make a damned fool out of me
Occasionally.