When I was a three year old
He took me out to show
Me a fountain where the goldfish
Watch over your wishes
He had much more to show
Than I needed to know
And after him I feel like I was on
The wall
And you could push me over if you want
But you can't be there when I fall
For me
When I was fourteen later in my youth
I wanted to make sure it was me who knew
How to be in charge
So I called
An older man with no name
To come and claim me
And when my family had all gone
I gave him a virginity I never had
I tried to grab onto
Myself but I lost it all
And after him I know that I hit
The wall
And gave up knowing what was on
The other side at all
I tried to catch my breath but i hit a wall
And I did my best to catch the blood
While it'd streak my face and fall
From me
When I was 19 I moved to the East
And thought I ditched the wall
But a man walked me home drunk
One night and I listened when he talked
He said I needed him to help
And he'd be there in case I fell
He led me down into the trees to
Show me a quicker route
When he ripped the belt from my young waist
I knew what he was talking about
After him I was underneath
The wall
And I tried to push myself back up
But by now I was just too calm
And no one sees me now just
A wall
I can stand the dirt and and the sand
But I can't answer
I can't hear you when you call
To me
When I was 23 years old I put the wrong things into me
I let the same men who brought me hell
Have the lock and keep the keys
And I chocked in sweat until I coughed up nasty HIV
Sitting underneath the wall you catch
What rolls downstream
And after him I know that I'm inside
The wall
I ask you how can something live
With no air to breathe at all?
And you can climb and kick or try and dig
To travel underneath
But I am now whats between you
And the side that you cant see
And I watch you as you walk away
And do not turn around
You tell me that Im broken, lost
And someday you hope I'm found
But how can you find what's hidden in
The wall?
You can look a lifetime if you'd like
And I'll be here standing tall
The wall
After me I will walk away from
The wall
And I'll sit with tears on the other side
And watch this fucker fall
I am what will one day break down
The wall
If I've learned anything I learned how
To be a wrecking ball
Nothing breaks better than from inside
So I hide inside and plot within
Pushing back against
Both sides
And you don't have to know what's on my mind
But I will give you hope
That I'm still going
And I'll show you that I'm fine
And you can one day come and watch it fall
Drink the daylight breathe the air
And understand it all
With me.
One night and I listened when he talked
He said I needed him to help
And he'd be there in case I fell
He led me down into the trees to
Show me a quicker route
When he ripped the belt from my young waist
I knew what he was talking about
After him I was underneath
The wall
And I tried to push myself back up
But by now I was just too calm
And no one sees me now just
A wall
I can stand the dirt and and the sand
But I can't answer
I can't hear you when you call
To me
When I was 23 years old I put the wrong things into me
I let the same men who brought me hell
Have the lock and keep the keys
And I chocked in sweat until I coughed up nasty HIV
Sitting underneath the wall you catch
What rolls downstream
And after him I know that I'm inside
The wall
I ask you how can something live
With no air to breathe at all?
And you can climb and kick or try and dig
To travel underneath
But I am now whats between you
And the side that you cant see
And I watch you as you walk away
And do not turn around
You tell me that Im broken, lost
And someday you hope I'm found
But how can you find what's hidden in
The wall?
You can look a lifetime if you'd like
And I'll be here standing tall
The wall
After me I will walk away from
The wall
And I'll sit with tears on the other side
And watch this fucker fall
I am what will one day break down
The wall
If I've learned anything I learned how
To be a wrecking ball
Nothing breaks better than from inside
So I hide inside and plot within
Pushing back against
Both sides
And you don't have to know what's on my mind
But I will give you hope
That I'm still going
And I'll show you that I'm fine
And you can one day come and watch it fall
Drink the daylight breathe the air
And understand it all
With me.
